i dont know why

its been a long time since i have talked to a friend of mine.to be honest that friend of mine is a girl that i met a year plus ago.i met her out for tuition before.a physics tuition.as u wanna know,i am a rather emo person.i dont talk sometimes.after that meeting it seemed that she dont wanna talk to me anymore.i thought of why of this.

its seemed so strange.how could one just stop talking to a person all of a sudden?maybe because i can't communicate?my teacher once told me that i donno how to communicate with people and advised me to attend courses that help me in this area of me.or maybe i dont suit her group of friends?i donno her friends.ok i should say i know 2 of her best friends i think.let me tell u this.on 14 nov i am going to ask a good friend of hers to watch a soccer match.in that meeting i am going to ask her to do me a favour.that favour is to pass a letter to her good friend who i mentioned that she stopped talking to me all of a sudden.that letter says "why are u ignoring me on msn?".

i felt so err...unhappy about a friend who just ignore me for no rhyme or reason.no one did that to me before.i remembered that i said some "hurtful" words to her on msn.some time later i wrote a comment in her friendster profile to apologize for that and said that i hoped to be still a friend of yours.afterwards she replied to me in a comment in my friendster profile that she was busy.i thought so.

I also remembered that i asked her to my blog to hers.she did....for some time.at first i found that she has linked my blog to her.some time later she deleted the link.she seemed to be telling me that i am like a stranger to her,not knowing me before.i hoped i am assuming things.but after all these happening,it seemed that i not assuming things.now i dont even know that she will reply to my letter.its unlikely that she will reply.of course i hope she will reply some day but i think the chances of that happening is so low it is like a hole without a floor,going down so deep.

i hope the person i am going to meet agrees to go out with me for the soccer match.if she agrees i hope i can fulfil my objective and make her as happy as i can.after all she's a girl.i can't go out with a girl and let her enjoy the meeting.or else i donno what to do about this.